Spiritual Winner by: Jenai Dulaney

even when my hands too tired to hold on my heart wont let go.
im physically exhausted with feelin this way but spiritually my love will never fade.
maybe im committed to somethin make-believe
but why would my heart fight for what could never be?
every day im at war with emotions over mentality,
do i embrace the things i feel or only take chance with reality?
i wont lie, it kills me inside that what i want dont come easy
but i been standin here wide open just hopin that god sees me.
i pray every night he hears me, i know i sound redundant
and trust me i am thankful because his blessings are abundant.
i can get a little side tracked when my affection deepens,
the more that i daydream the more my focus starts to weaken.
my vision gets a little blurry, sensitivity brings tears to my eyes
but the pain is washed away once they all begin to dry.
each time i break down i get a little stronger,
im a woman with a purpose, wont be strugglin much longer.
with the help of my haters ive built my faith,
ill be damned if i give up or be told its "too late"