Out of Sight, Out of Mind

men vs. women by: Jenai Dulaney

2010-03-03T21:54:00.001-08:00

men & women are both one and the same
women just live from the heart
while men are guided by their brains.
see; a woman is brought up with love in her nature
and she'll make sure to have it before her last breath escapes her.
men are plain and simple, most are nonchalant
just respect them and be loyal; thats all they really want.
if women were more like men
and men were more like women
this world would be a better place
we'd all feel like we're winnin.
but reality has shown us...
SH*T WILL NEVER BE THAT EASY

you men want to complain about the gold diggin groupies
but flash all your cash & take pictures wearin Gucci
talkin bout your benz's & suicide doors
got girls ridin shotgun in some sh*t that aint yours.
if you would have took the time to look some women in their eyes
you would have seen from the beginnin all they saw were dollar signs.
so really who's to blame; is it YOU or these chicks
wana be known for what u buy; why you think you got picked?

ladies, ladies, ladies dont even get me started
runnin round screamin that every nigga is cold-hearted
maybe they treat you the way that you let them
you complain hes disrespectful but turn around & profess him?
as a woman i know so im just speakin the truth
we always givin that same excuse, "i just need MORE proof!"
you should know when to leave; you love him but that dont mean he'll change
got you callin other women you dont know out their name
well they know just as much as you and to them you dont exist
think about that next time; she might be an innocent b*tch.

instead of standin behind each other; we choose to break each other down
we define & demean - we talk sh*t & we clown
"that b*tch is broke" or "that nigga is a bum"
even if we aint got money the person we f**kin gotta have some.
quick to call somebody out on somethin they dont have
but if we get blasted we take it personal and get mad.
no one said life would be fair but we dont make it any better
rather worry about the next man and not have our OWN sh*t together

maybe yall wouldnt run into groupies if you pursued real women
and maybe yall wouldnt meet dogs if you paid more attention
when you find someone you gotta learn to set the bar
either we will be loved or we'll just be gettin f**ked
sadly, some of us never know which one we are.

ACCEPTION by: Jenai Dulaney

2010-01-27T22:58:00.000-08:00

tonight i looked up in the sky and for the very first time
i had no questions & didnt bother to wonder why.
i told myself just accept things for what they are
like how i cant touch the sky but i should always reach for the stars.
that anything's possible if man walked on the moon
and to never judge someone if you havent walked a mile in their shoes.
that its better to give than it is to receive
knowin what you want aint exactly what you need.
as people we wear emotions that dont always agree
our gut feels one way that our minds refuse to see.

we try and build love with insecurity in our heart
but you cant build a house without bricks
the "he say, she say" will tear you apart
even more than the stones & sticks.

the longer i looked up at the beautiful sky
the more i understood the words of the wise.
by looking at nothing you can see everything
which explains why we close our eyes when we dream.
i take a daily dose of reality 'cause i dont mind the taste
life can be bittersweet at an indescribable pace.
here today but could be gone tomorrow,
take advatage, not for granted - pride should be swallowed

we try and build happiness with deception in our heart
but you cant sail a boat without wind
the "he say, she say" is only the start
but you are to determine where it ends.

-1/27/10

All Dogs Go To Heaven

2009-10-18T09:46:00.000-07:00

ill just get straight to the point...
I HAVE NO MERCY FOR CHEATIN ASS NIGGAS!
lyin little boys who gotta CREEP ass niggas
you think you mess w/ a b*tch that can keep a secret nigga?
PLEASE!!!
you naive if you believe that sh*t
but that aint go through yo mind when you was F**KIN that b*tch
you was worried bout a nut
cuz u was insecure bout yo girl givin a F**K!
aww i guess you DO come with feelings....
well i got news for you, WEAK ASS NIGGA
she on the same sh*t as you
probably cheatin on her nigga
& if she dont got a man
then theres your answer right there
u MUST be f**kin a saaad saaad b*tch
all depressed & sh*t even after you hit,
havin sex w/ you is equivalent to slittin up her wrist.
she love the way it eases her pain.
so i guess the jokes on u...
participatin in a game that only losers play
u think gettin pussy mean u winnin
but what do them test results say?
Oh thats right, you didnt think about THAT either...
well you better switch places w/ her & get on those knees
b/c you got A LOT of prayin to do & betta ask God to please
protect you from any sexual disease & even worse you better ask him
to protect you from me
cuz i COULD KILL YOU!!!!!!!!!
but im wayy way better than that
and i refuse to waste my time givin u the satisfaction
of upsettin me jus cuz u wanted some action
well i hope it was ALL YOU EVER DREAMED
b/c thats the only place youll EVER see me.
i should pray for god to send you to hell how u got my heart stressin
but lucky for you all dogs go to heaven.
see you there... B*TCH!

*This is for anyone who's been cheated, but i wrote this for my "Twinn".
I love you man & I hope you never put up with that sh*t ever again!

2009-10-11T17:55:00.000-07:00

It finally came to me why some niggas dont trust me
they probably never thought they asses was gon' love me
see, a nigga wit an ego got a lot to prove
his plan aint to love you he just choose not to lose.
they keep you in their corner just to put up a fight
and they swear every bitch dont matter in life
when really they just scared to make these "bitches" their wives
cuz gettin dropped for another guy would hurt their pride...
but aint it a trip when they already have what they need
blinded by "p**sy" & material things
they know you the one but got plenty lined up
wana get all emotional when they know times up.
well you cant get mad at what my mama created
im a beautiful bitch, that goes witout sayin.
maybe i should walk around with a player mentality

these days its so hard to find a good man to have my back
but trust me theres a nigga who'll pick up the slack.
"id be single for the rest of my life if i cant have you"
at least thats how they wish i felt, but thats far from the truth.
step up to the plate before the dish gets cold
they gon end up bein leftovers and i dont f**k wit those.
i dont understand why cant niggas just be clear?
they never want me to leave but dont try to keep me here?
expectin the whole world but always f**kin wit my head
speak ya mind baby cuz close mouths dont get fed.

Spiritual Winner by: Jenai Dulaney

2009-09-23T20:16:00.000-07:00

even when my hands too tired to hold on my heart wont let go.
im physically exhausted with feelin this way but spiritually my love will never fade.
maybe im committed to somethin make-believe
but why would my heart fight for what could never be?
every day im at war with emotions over mentality,
do i embrace the things i feel or only take chance with reality?
i wont lie, it kills me inside that what i want dont come easy
but i been standin here wide open just hopin that god sees me.
i pray every night he hears me, i know i sound redundant
and trust me i am thankful because his blessings are abundant.
i can get a little side tracked when my affection deepens,
the more that i daydream the more my focus starts to weaken.
my vision gets a little blurry, sensitivity brings tears to my eyes
but the pain is washed away once they all begin to dry.
each time i break down i get a little stronger,
im a woman with a purpose, wont be strugglin much longer.
with the help of my haters ive built my faith,
ill be damned if i give up or be told its "too late"

Patience by: Jenai Dulaney

2009-09-23T20:10:00.000-07:00

lord knows i been persistent and i been patient cuz im still waitin.
i been watchin and i peep game that all these niggas are the same.
and i say "nigga" metaphorically because a real man would adore me.
when i say "me" i mean a real woman whos never scared and never runnin.
take my pride? yeah, they try. but they cant touch nothin i hold inside.
they can only break me if i let them make me and by "make" me i mean portray me. im no gimmick, just charismatic. all the attention? shit, you can have it!
i need somethin i can feel, id rather have a life, friends and love thats real.
when i say "real" im talkin the good the bad the happy the sad
and still be the best somebody's ever had.
and i mean "best" as in better than the rest,
no comparison everything more & nothing less.
i dont think you understand how long ive been waitin,
but ima keep holdin on, like i said i been patient.

Hip Hop Lover by: Jenai Dulaney

2009-09-23T20:06:00.000-07:00

i dont know much about her
but i know hes in love,
she brings a smile to his face when its her he's thinkin of.
what would he do without her im not sure he even knows,
she'll always be there because their bond will only grow.
i know hes committed- he aint hit it & quit it,
hes been stuck since the first time he ever ripped it.
when the world bring him down she keep him on his feet,
she his number one so she impossible to beat.
he dont want no one to have her he will never let her go,
he wont let them take her from him since shes all that he know.
whenever somethin happens hes at her location,
he reaches deep inside and she provides the inspiration.
he dont want no one else i can see shes all he need.
i just wish i was hip-hop, then hed be in love with me.

Mirror by: Jenai Dulaney

2009-09-23T20:00:00.000-07:00

as i look in to the mirror, im in love with what i see
im not just intrigued by beauty, but who ive grown to be.
i dont see the same person as yall do when you look at me
you see what is physical, i view myself mentally.
only i know what i feel and you should feel free to disagree,
but who i am today is not the same person i used to be.
as far as i can remember i could only count on me,
didnt have no one to turn to; no close friends or family.
mom was always gone earning funds on account of me,
so i talked to the four walls that always surrounded me.
had not a single piece of furniture, no bed or TV
managed to stay fed but cant remember what i had to eat.
no matter the circumstance i knew how to take care of me
not to discredit my mother, she just had somewhere to be.
whenever i saw my mom i told her shed always have me
and reminded her she didnt need a man to be happy.
i would help her make it through it all by myself, gladly
and i did just that without a so-called daddy,
i swear i used to hate it when people talked shit about me
now i understand they aint talkin bout shit without me
and its always gon be someone thatll forever doubt me.
but ima prove them wrong and i shall do it proudly.
i stay astray from the negative vibes yall try to send me
i know its all apart of the plan to try and end me
its crazy to see the people some of us choose to envy
if you jealous then you just mad cuz you look in the mirror and feel empty.

Birds of a Feather...

2009-09-08T23:48:00.000-07:00

Yup, thats right... birds of a feather flock together. i couldnt agree more. the people you hang out with are usually the people you have the most in common with which is why you became friends in the first place. friendships ARE relationships without the romance. so if you want a good friend, take a second to stand back and recognize what your "friends" are all about. dont be so naive that you think because youre always there everyone else will be too. that isnt how the world operates, trust me! if that was the case, the few good people that probably exist in your life would never get hurt.

i learned a lot today about numerology and how numbers work with people. i find that stuff interesting enough to believe it. youre either compatible with a person or youre not. in life you are destined to be somethin you have no control over, either way you look at it... thats what you were SUPPOSED to be. the people you meet, no matter how big or small of a role they play in your life, were meant to cross your path. you learn from these people, you love these people, or you resent these people. all in all, you get an idea of who you are and why you turned out that way with the people you meet. life's lessons arent always obvious, but the purpose is in your face. you just have to be willing to recognize its reasoning.

when you find it hard to be friends with a person, they probably arent supposed to be categorized as a "friend". associates are cool, but not everyone you meet and know on a first & last name basis is your FRIEND. a friend is someone who is there for you no matter the situation, you dont have to call on them they usually know when youre in need, and they dont judge you. if judgment comes into play, then that might be a sign he/she isnt the person you need to be calling a friend. most importantly, being honest doesnt come hard for true friends. you can go back and forth as much as you like and say that you always rekindle your friendship even when its at its worst but honestly... would a FRIEND put you through that more than once? or let alone at all? nah, i dont think so.

if you have to question a persons motive in your life, the real question is why should you still be holding on? POW!

Poppin' the blog cherry.

2009-09-08T01:05:00.000-07:00

Ill skip all the junk about this being my first blog and just get straight to the point...

If you dont like to hear other people's opinions, especially mine, this aint the place for you! But if youre interested in what I have to say for some reason, keep on readin. I apologize in advance if I offend anyone with the things I say, im not here to crush your feelings. Im here to entertain you with a day in the life of Jenai Dulaney (or Naykid as people refuse to quit calling me). Still think youre interested? Your call...

QUESTION OF THE DAY: What makes you love someone?

Yea yea yea- I know, "why do girls always want to talk about LOVE?". well, i only ask because everyone has their own insight. I dont think I know two people who's ever loved all the exact same things about each other. The reason I love someone is probably NOT the reason they love me (if they even love me at all). Then again that's another question ive always wondered. How can you truly love someone without being loved in return? I mean honestly, that has to feel like shit! Im not saying all the boys ive had feelings for liked me in return, but if im going to add "LOVE" to the equation, i know i better be getting some of that love back!
So what seems to be my type? hmm I actually dont "prefer" types, but it seems i am drawn to the following (and not intentionally, thanks!)...

1) bad boys
2) musically inclined
3) class clowns/humorous
4) over protective
5) argumentative
6) mama's boys
7) light skinned
8) scrawny/not so built
9) mr. popular
10)cheaters

basically in a nutshell, its time to edit the list and cut some of these traits loose. Ladies, if your list has been the same for quite some years and you still havent settled down with mr. right, i suggest you do the same b/c your so-called "type" might be the opposite of what you really need. Think about it!

Anyway, I wont post too much bullshit for one night. It's getting late and my R&B Slowjam playlist is calling my name. Until next time...